And just when you think things can’t get any more stressful? You get laid off.
I went into work today, begrudgingly as always, and then left…well…more begrudgingly. Five days after announcing my pregnancy, there I am, unemployed. I am not terribly upset about being unemployed, mainly because I can’t think of anything I hate more than that job. (Except maybe one of my previous jobs…) I am exhausted, fat, and now, without health insurance. Isn’t life grand?
That said, I will just put it out there that I absolutely believe that this situation is based solely on my pregnancy and the fact that there were rumors that lay offs would start after the new year. I am fairly certain that, because of my condition, and the expense on the small company that employed me of the time off I will have to take, I was the prime target of this. It is disheartening because I have been there for almost four years, but also, as I said, a relief. Such an intense hatred of something can’t be good for the baby.
But I won’t say that I haven’t freaked out and thought about going and hitting several choice people in the face (or with my car) today. I have. And the fantasies have been almost as real as the ones I have about stabbing the cast of The Real World. And that, my friends, is serious.
I know that things will work out for the best. My Beloved and I did have some things in mind that we couldn’t do while I was working, so now, well, I am all freed up for the time-being. I am hoping that I am eligible for unemployment and can take a little time off to decide what happens next. In the meantime, I am just doing research on assistance programs and things in the area.
It is frustrating to think that a company that I have worked long, and ridiculously hard hours for would do this to me now. NOW?! Really?
Anyone experienced in knee-breaking, hit me up. Have I got some work for YOU.
Also??? I NEED WINE.
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Oh no! Or, oh yes! As someone who used to work a deplorable office job I know how glad you must feel that it’s over, even if they were really shitty about the reasons why they let you go. But as someone who’s also pregnant and wondering how on earth the hubs and I are going to afford this mound of flesh we have coming on his one salary (I’m not working now), I know it can get stressful at times. You have a really good attitude about the whole situation, though, and you’re right that everything really WILL turn out for the best. 😉
I guess I have to look at it this way: positive attitude or murderous rampage? One is illegal. So, there it is. I can’t give birth in prison!
But yeah, we will work it out. I really do think it is all for the best. And on the upside of things, now I qualify for WIC. Sheesh.
Oddly, things do work out. When we were pregnant with our first son I was working at a museum in a grant based position and the grant was about to run out. My husband had 1 semester left on his contract as a sculpture tech, we lived in a disgusting run down drafty house, were broke, and all our student loans were coming due. I interviewed for a teaching a job in the city where I grew up and where my family still lived when I was 8 months pregnant. I got the job, gave birth, moved, and started a new job all in the span of 3 weeks. I was insane for about a year. (I think I am sane now. Ask me tomorrow and my answer may differ.)
hang in there. i know it’s super cliche, but i am kind of a firm believer in the whole “everything happens for a reason” thing. For the record, this also applies to people who get their knees broken, they’ve got it coming. 🙂
Oh God! Such a-holes! Maybe you should sue?
Also, it’s THEIR loss, you know?! You just focus on the alien miracle that is coming your way soon! 🙂
Wow that sounds like discrimination and talk about stress. I hope you got some sort of severance package to tide you over until unemployment (I heard that sometimes takes a little while) since you’ve been there for 4 years. I hope it all works out for the best.
I’m so sorry you got laid off and so HAPPY FOR YOU to be out of such a toxic place. I was at a job that I LOATHED when we found out we were pregnant and my first freak out was, “how am I going to not have a totally effed up kid when I’m surrounded by such idiots and anger?”
Thankfully it all worked out for the better and I know it will for you as well! Whatever higher power you may or may not believe in will take care of it all!
You guys are all a ray of Internet sunshine, just so you know!
I don’t know if this is even a logical, rational way of feeling, but I am actually the least stressed I have been in a long time and it is glorious. Of course, I still have a paycheck or two coming in, and haven’t yet let myself think about insurance and hospitals and all that fun stuff. But, I have a really great and supportive family, the best boyfriend ever, awesome friends and a bunch of really amazing new bloggie-type friends. Things will be jussssssst fine. And if they aren’t, I am sure there are some really great psychiatric hospitals around!
Sooooo many thanks to you rays of Internet sunshine!
Hi, I’ve never commented before, but please, please talk to a lawyer about this. If you think the lay off truly happened because of the pregnancy, then the company may be breaking the law and you could have legal recourse. Make a few phone calls.
Um, what the?! I have clearly been living and working under a rock since I started my new position. I feel like an ass and a bad friend! Need me to call my “connections”?! I’ve got some “work” for them to take care of. Maybe we can get a group discount…
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